The new way of doing things

 

Hello 

Thank you for stopping by.

The year 2020 will be remembered for all the things that we let go of and all the changes we made in the blink of an eye. How I do readings is just one of those things. 

Until further notice readings will be done by phone or on Zoom. Cost remains at the special rate of $70 for me and $9.10 for the government. Total $79.10 regardless of how long the reading is. This rate will remain in place until we are healthy enough to feel free to hug again.

Parties can be done on Zoom. Set up a laptop or tablet in a room so that your guests can enjoy privacy. I will send a Zoom invitation for each participant. They click in and away we go. These readings are generally half an hour. Cost for these is $79.10

I know many of you like to join me in my magical reading room. I get it. I find it really hard to talk wearing a mask. And I don't want to put up a wall between us. The elevator in my building is going to be rebuilt this winter. That means more people in contact with each other. Numbers are creeping up again as the infection rate rises again.

So, do these phone and Zoom readings really work. Yes, they really do. And the oddest thing has happened over the last few months as I do these readings. I can travel more. I can find your energy and the energy of others who are important to you or may be a significant factor in your life at the moment. I feel that my readings are deeper and stronger these days. 

I want to continue to offer you the best possible reading. This feels like the right way to go at the moment. I hope to hear from you because I really enjoy helping so many of you on your journey.

You can make an appointment right here https://my.timetrade.com/book/VLZP6

You can email me at info@kingstonpsychic.com

You can phone or text me at 613-328-6128

I will be all done camping by September 9th and back full time albeit by phone or Zoom. 

Thank you

Marilyn

Are your roots telling you something?

Roots. So much of how we interpret events today depends on what we learned as children and all the experiences we have accumulated along the way. In the Mastery of Love Dom Miguel Ruiz explains that it is not only what we have experienced in life but what our ancestors experienced. Those are the lessons they hand on to the next generation. That generation adds their own layer to the lessons and passes that along. Like the tree our roots grow, our story is added ring by ring to sustain and nourish the growth of our family and our self and our society.

Sometimes our roots and our history feel like they are hiding something. Other times stories and events in families and cultures leaves us feeling exposed. All we can do is hang on, continue to grow and alter the story as more is revealed. The events in the world today feel like they are exposing our uncertainties and fears. We need to reassess on a daily basis our own beliefs as well as our beliefs as a culture.During these strange times we may be assessing how we want our actions to influence our society. And then we, like the tree will know how far back in our ancestry the truth lies and what it is we must do today. What beliefs will we shed and what beliefs will sustain us are all being revealed in these challenging times. 

I look at this picture of a very tall tree with half its roots exposed by the shifting sands of the dunes on Lake Ontario. In time those same roots may be covered again. The tree will be there one way or another. Trees shed their leaves because carrying that heavy load will hurt them during the winter. What do you need to shed this fall? What beliefs are deep in your roots that sustain you or limit you? A tarot reading helps you find the truth and helps you shift that truth from your ancestors’ beliefs to your own. You can schedule your reading right here https://www.timetrade.com/book/VLZP6 or give us a call. 

Tarot + Happy

HappyTarot + Fearless + Kind =Happy. Now there is a mathematical formula that I can work with. How about you? Tarot gave me the guidance to see what might be. Sometimes it was not pretty at all. When the Hanged Man and the Five of Pentacles were permanent residences in my readings things were not feeling very wonderful. The Five of Pentacles even showed up at a Readers Studio conference to answer the question of “What does love mean to you?” And the worst of it was that card made perfect sense! It makes perfect sense to many clients who find love as an empty, lonely and bereft place.

 Yikes! It was a wakeup call for me that something was still wrong with my spirit. Thank you tarot for showing me this. Being happy in today’s world takes a lot of awareness. We need to pay attention to the triggers, the memories and the habits of old that derail happiness. We need to work from a place of abundance, of being enough, of loving life enough to engage in it fully right now.

How am I happy today? Tarot has helped me find a spiritual path that means I don’t have to drown my fears in wine today. My sons come to me when they need help and we can support each other even when we don’t agree whole heartedly. My clients feel supported and witnessed. Students in my home feel that they are safe and free of being judged. We can learn and share. I host a TV show on local television where I can introduce this community to the larger community. It is an important link I believe. Love is no longer a complicated thing. Love is or it is not. Being kind in love makes it much simpler to enjoy life. It is possible to be happy and content knowing that there are ways to deal with any situation. Tarot has given me a community of like-minded souls in my life.

 Best of all the people in my life who do not love tarot and the metaphysical world like I do have come to respect that it is part of my life in a big way. Walking the tarot walk, talking the tarot talk fearlessly and kindly has brought so much happiness in to my life that I will never again give this up.

Pull a card for what happy looks like in your life today. Share it here if you like.

Fearless Questions:What is it about using tarot cards that helps you find your fearless being?How can those tough cards show you how to be fearless?How do blocks and challenges in the tarot bring out your fearless reader?How do you approach reading for someone who intimidates, concerns or worries you?How do you deal with the tough stuff in a tarot reading?How does being fearless and using tarot help you know when to hold them and know when to fold them? Or more precisely when to take action and when to wait?

Kind Questions:Can tarot teach us the language of kindness?Can tarot show us where we are kind and where we might need to be kind?Do you find kindness something that is worthwhile in your life?What is the kindest card in the deck as far as you see today? Why? What does it tell you today about you?

HappyWhat does happiness feel like to you? Do you recognize it?How does a tarot reading take the challenge out of the moment, day or week ahead?

Tarot + Fearless

Tarot: Fearless, Kind and Happy

My love for tarot started when I was about twelve. We have spent a lot of time together. Tarot has helped guide me. Tarot showed me the path. On that path I found out how to be fearless, kind and happy.

Fearless came first although kindness was tag teaming right along beside it. My love for Tarot had stayed mainly in the background. There was work to do, a family to raise, money to be earned, chores to be finished. In there the study of tarot found a little space. This was a time of gaining knowledge and studying the multiple meanings of each card. This was the academic side of Tarot.

In 2004 my world fell apart. My husband died, my sons and I were wild. I came to the realization that I could not stop drinking my beloved wine and that if I didn't do something I was going to be in trouble. I joined AA that year. I sold our home in 2005 and soon after realized that my career as a food service manager in psychiatric hospitals and jails was done after 32 years. Despite seemingly taking control of my life I was scared to be. Existing was a terrifying experience.

Tarot was a huge factor in me gaining wellness. Tarot beyond its academic meanings is a spiritual tool that will guide you if you listen. A tarot reading is much like the AA 12 steps. The cards highlight our fears and lay out a possible action plan if we choose to embrace it.

Tarot for me showed me my spiritual path which was sorely missing in my life. Tarot is a tool that I use to help other people find their path in life as it helps me. I wanted to help people. I could not work in the tough environments a psychiatric hospital and jail anymore. Tarot offered me a way to be fearless.

Finding people to share the gift of tarot with was my next big challenge. It was suggested that I get on social media and send out a newsletter. I was barely coherent in the ways of the computer. I almost quit a dozen times.  It would have been so easy to quit. But the Universe had other ideas and gave me a new cell phone. I could not answer that phone when it rang. The screen flipped and twirled and I could not find the answer me button. Other technology was challenging me because for everything I learned there were ten more things to learn. I was ready to quit. I sat at my dining room table with my head in my hands drooping and tired. Quitting was a sure thing at that moment.

Except that I didn't quit technology. I wanted more than anything in the world to be a full time tarot reader and help people. I sat up straight and said I can do this. I will ask for help and not apologize for not knowing ever again. I gave myself a name: Miss Fearless Technology! And I can tell you that I own technology these days or I figure out how. Tarot wanted me to work with it…and share it with other people. I became Miss Fearless that day.

Miss Fearless wears Red Shoes and travels the world and shares her stories. She has gone kayaking with whales and pet a whale in Mexico. (Miss Fearless is afraid of fish). She shares when she is afraid or down with others. Others respond by cheering and nodding. Being fearless has helped me find my spiritual path, my community and happiness. Miss Fearless had to give up being tough and soften into kindness. That was a big step.

Pull a card and see what being fearless could do for you. Share your thoughts here if you like. I will share my card on 'fearless' here tomorrow.

Kingfisher and The Seven of Cups

Kingfishers and The Seven of Cups
August 17, 2011 with awareness to December 2011


The magnificent Kingfisher is a bird that I have always found fascinating and fun. Greek Mythology states that Ceyx felt the great need to visit the Oracle at Delphi and against his wife’s better judgment, set off on the ill-fated voyage. Halcyone dreamt of his death and rushed to the sea where she found her husband’s body washing ashore. Before she succeeded in killing herself the God’s turned her into a kingfisher. So great was the love between these two that her husband too became a kingfisher. Kingfishers represent great love to this day. I knew this story as I sat on the beach listening to two families of kingfishers whizzing back and forth across the channel between the two islands. I wondered, what message about love am I receiving here? Like many of the messages I received on this trip it has taken quiet time and deep reflection to fully understand. As a matter of fact this message had been coming to me in bits and pieces for some time. The card for what does Kingfisher want me to know was the Seven of Water (or Cups) in the Gaian Tarot. It shows a man drinking deeply from one goblet as six others sit unused. The colours are blue and white in this card, much like the striking Kingfisher. The affirmation for this card is “I open my whole heart to the dream”. What then is my dream, I ask? What am I leaving in the other cups? What does ‘Love got to do with it’ as the song goes? And then there was the light bulb moment with the full glory hallelujah chorus! I realize that my great fear about trying to love again is clouded by the marriages that influenced me the most. Those were the marriages of: my parents, my in laws and my own marriage of thirty years. All three of those marriages had a great deal of bickering, imbalance, and yes fear. Fear to speak your truth, fear of going it alone, and fear to own your power. That is what I think of when I think of marriage and no, it’s not very nice!





Majesty of Nature: Sitting in awe of all that Nature offers! A Minke whale is blowing in the distance. North is Alaska. And I am witness to it all.



This awareness began at the Readers Studio Conference in April of 2011 at a class by the Amberstones on Love in the Tarot. The card that came to me representing how I feel about love was the Five of Pentacles card. My partner in the exercise said, “That’s not very good now is it?” in a very kindly way. I thought that the card was speaking to my feelings of loss and fear resulting from being a widow. As the year has unfolded, I realize that the fear of loneliness and loss goes right to my childhood. I felt that this was the fear, grief and anger that I was releasing to the roots of the 1100 year old Red Cedar the day before. Perhaps by finally releasing those feelings so deeply, I opened the portal to see the next choice, the next cup for me to drink from.

Seven of Water from the Gaian Tarot: What is your dream? How can you choose it now?



On this quest I witnessed many relationships. What I saw was the deep understanding it takes to feel secure and loved in a relationship. I knew on an intellectual level that this type of love comes from feeling secure in your own self. Bearing witness to partnerships that grew from strength rather than fear was illuminating. I realized that up until now, I had relied too much on my perception and personal experience of how to love. I did not know how to love fearlessly. The chosen cup must be one of loving from a place deep inside my own well of contentment, self-love, joy, and courage. I left behind the fear of love that comes from a Five of Pentacles mindset to fly free like the wild dare devil Kingfishers. What was learned must be unlearned. Opening my heart by opening to the dream is something I never thought possible. Better late than never I guess!


From the bow of a kayak an Orca looks like an amazing creature, don't you think? We can realize any dream if we let go of our past misconceptions.







She Who Watches and Western Red Cedar Healing

She Who Watches and Western Red Cedar


To say that each day out was full of surprises really does not do justice. The second morning we awoke to Brian owner of Pacific Northwest Expeditions calling us before breakfast “Orcas”. Rushing down to the water’s edge we could see them coming down the strait. They swam past right under our feet. One young whale rubbed itself all along the small rocks as it swam past. We heard them singing and chatting to each other when the hydrophone was lowered into the water. Spectacular!

This day was perhaps my favorite day of all. The weather was perfect. Whales were plentiful. Everyone was relaxed and playful in the kayaks. At noon we hiked up through the rainforest to see an 1100 year old Western Red Cedar. This tree is a stalwart to the native cultures here. Its bark strips off easily and can be woven into water proof hats and clothes. Those tall trees stand true and do not warp or rot. These are the trees that totems are carved into. These trees provided homes, canoes and protection. They have powerful medicine.

A rainforest is an interesting place to hike when you are the eldest of the group to say nothing of being the shortest. Slinging a leg over a downed tree that is higher than your head took great ingenuity and strategizing. Though it took me a little longer than the others, I made it.         

 

This 1100 year old Western Red Cedar dwarves all around it, especially us!

I don’t know where the top of that tree really was. I could not see it. I stood in awe of nature’s magnificent old wisdom. I love trees. When they widened the road where I grew up they took down all kinds of trees and blasted rock. I cried for days. I asked permission of this great tree to leave my pain in its care. I felt the reason for me being here was to leave pain behind. I stood on the other side of the tree as the others chatted and performed my ceremony, gave thanks and offered what I could. The offering turned out to be a teaching. One of the young engineers on the trip came around to see if I was okay. When I explained what I was up to he said let’s do it. He was solemn and respectful and seemed appreciative of the effort. Somehow, it feels like I was there to offer this young man a few words about honoring Gaia and keeping her well. For an engineer in Calgary inventing new ways of extracting resources from the earth it felt like an important teaching from my perspective. 

 

This card turned up when I asked "What does Red Cedar want me to know?"

When I pulled my Gaian Tarot card for the day I was moved beyond words really and cried a few tears. To me it appeared that the woman deep in grief is hugging a tree. Apparently, she is leaning on a standing stone to release her grief into the compassionate healing of Gaia. The petroglyph of She Who Watches appears in the clouds above her. We are never alone in our grief and must not lose sight of that even as we weep our tears. People often say to me, I have done all the work. I have let that all go. Why is it coming up again? It is because we are human and afraid; because we are human and rarely weep and feel grief to the deepest releasing level. Because we feel emotions that remind us of what is gone and we miss those people and feelings of joy. We need to release, express and feel our grief so that it evolves into something softer that does not keep us locked in fear and pain. And so on this day with this 1100 year old Western Red Cedar I let go of another layer of grief and pain. The young engineer offered a healing of his own, by being compassionate enough to check on me and join me in part of the ceremony. We really do not know when or who is there for us until we let compassion into our life. And from the Gaian Tarot text “I allow the Mother to heal my sorrow as I open my heart in compassion to others”. And I would add receive the compassion of others, something I found very difficult to do for far too long.

 

An old stump full of life! Death giving way to life and renewal as always.